“Loving yourself isn’t vanity. It’s sanity.”- Andre Gide
It was Thursday morning.
I woke up after a night tossing and turning.
The evening before, I returned home after experiencing my very first laser treatment.
Or laser treatments.
Lots of them.
I had 4 lasers combined with lots of needles pricked all over my face.
I’m a virgin at all of this.
I didn’t know what to expect.
I looked into the mirror and the reflection I saw didn’t look at all like me.
My face swelled up like a balloon.
I had enormous bags under my eyes.
Bruises forming across my face.
I looked like I’d been in a fight.
A bad one.
Funny thing was, it didn’t scare me.
I looked at my reflection and laughed.
The old me would have worried, stressed…what would people think?
Will I look like me again?
I remember having this moment, this awareness.
That’s not me.
I’m the same person on the inside.
I may look different on the outside but it didn’t matter.
I realized I had changed.
I was different
On the inside.
My face continued to swell.
Like a puffer fish.
Bigger and bigger.
I received an invitation to a party.
A big party.
A fancy party.
In a penthouse with important people.
The party was the next day.
I decided to go.
Sure I was swollen.
Under eye bags.
I tossed on a pair of sunglasses.
I didn’t look like me but
I was me.
The real me
I’m just getting to know
And I like her.
You are one outstanding woman!! I am not a virgin of plastic surgery nor to any kinds of face treatments and honestly I hide myself out during recovery time. The confident and no stopping energy of yours is amazing. Funny, I remember texting messaging during your treatment and it appeared to me that you maintained very positive during all the troubles my dear. Proud of you and I am also learning to love myself like you! Thank you for your authentic self and for getting personal with us. Cheers to midlife and loving ourselves!
YOUR AWESOME, CATHERINE!! A+ THERE’S NO WAY I COULD HAVE GONE TO THE PARTY!😕. I THE WAY I WAS RAISED STILL RINGS IN MY EARS!! NO MATTER THE HELP I HAVE GOTTEN, THE CHANGES I HAVE MADE, OR HOW MANY TIMES MY DEAR HUSBAND TELLS ME HOW BEAUTIFUL IAM!!! 💕. INSIDE AND OUT!!!💖. I DO ADMIRE YOU!!
I absolutely love this! It’s all about our inner self and allowing it to shine thru… it’s also the amazing confidence we build when we love ourselves!
Catherine Grace O'Connell
Thank you, Paula. Yes, it truly is. Confidence is so important.
I love it! And I’ll bet you still looked great! You shine from the inside!! Xoxoxoxo
Catherine Grace O'Connell
Thank you sister!!!
Wow….good for you!! That’s how we’ve changed for the better. While it’s great to look good, it’s also even better to know that it is just our outside, and our insides are the most important thing.